I need to do this.

I need help and I need to organize my thoughts.

I find myself failing in so many aspects because of my lack of discipline and yet my efforts to change that always seem to last temporarily. So many times I try to do something about it but never am able to follow through- or at least make a change long term. I just always fall back into the same patterns.

Even though I put alot of effort into figuring out new ways to conquer my lack of discipline; even though I am good about motivating myself and getting excited about changing my life for the better, I can't seem to keep a permanent change.

So I figured, I would write about it. Maybe this time I can at least document it.

Who knows, maybe it will work this time.